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在那个闷热的午后，我站在街角的咖啡馆里，看着对面那辆破旧的出租车。玻璃上的反光映出了一张年轻男人的脸，他穿着一件洗得发白的灰制服，头发凌乱却整齐地梳向脑后。
“你知道吗？”他的声音低沉沙哑，带着一种令人不舒服的 dominate感，“我在大学里见过你。”
我抿着嘴不说话，他知道我的名字，知道我最习以为常的地方。他一直都知道。
那天晚上，我们挤在狭小的出租屋里，shared everything. He brought out his favorite whiskey, and we sat there watching the stars disappear one by one until only the sound of the city noise remained.
When I finally came out of work, he was waiting for me on the street. His eyes lit up when he saw my face. He reached out and touched my arm, his thumb brushing against mine like a second skin.
“你总是这样。”他轻声说，“almost impossible to believe you’re from China.”
I didn’t know what to say. His smile was so genuine, so open. It made me feel like I had nothing to hide.
后来，我问他为什么选择我。
“Because you’re different,” he said flatly. “You are a man who knows how to make someone feel wanted.”
从那天起，我们的关系开始迅速升温。他的身上有一种无法抗拒的魅力，那种诱惑感一旦被激发，就会不可收拾地吞噬一切。
But I also know that this kind of passion can never be truly satisfied. It’s like running after a mirage, chasing something that vanishes just out of reach.
When we finally said goodbye last month, it felt like forever ago. But looking back, all those moments in the rain, under the stars, with his warm touch – they still sting like a sharp needle in my heart.
现在，每当我回想这些日子，那种强烈的欲望仿佛还在胸腔里回荡。我知道，这种感觉是如此的真实，如此的 passionate，以至于任何 words都无法形容 it.
但是，我也明白，这段关系终将结束。就像所有的感情都会有它的终点，只是我们无法预知它何时到来。
然而，就在这段 relationship 的最后时刻，我感受到了一种前所未有的 clarity. I know exactly what I want, and I also know what I need to do to make it happen.
The thought of him hovering over me, waiting for the right moment to take control, fills me with an overwhelming sense of security.
But deep down, I also fear that if things go too fast, something valuable might be lost along the way.
生活总是充满了 choice and trade-offs. And sometimes, it’s not just about what we want, but also about what we can afford.
When he was gone, I felt lighter. Not necessarily happy, but free from burdens I didn’t even know I carried.
But now, with him back in my life, every moment feels like a battle. And I’m not sure if I can win it all.
Maybe the best thing is to let go of the past and focus on the future. Because sometimes, the past is too much to handle, especially when it comes to love and desire.
Life is full of uncertainties, but at least we have each other. At least me and him.
But what if I miss you too? What if the passion between us fades away like a flame in the wind?
I don’t know how long this feeling will last, or whether it will ever return after it’s gone.
But for now, all I can do is to cherish these moments, and try to make them as meaningful as possible. Because love, especially passion love, is something that should be cherished forever.
Until the next time，when he arrives at my door again.
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